i was afraid to post anything here - people can be so cruel.
tammy is a friend. here's what i wrote her:
geeeeeeze, tammy. what to say....
for only having met you face to face less than half a dozen times, here is what i know about my friend, Sandshaker:
i know you fought hard.
i know you stayed strong.
i know you never lost your faith.
i know you love your family.
i know the pain you have endured was undeserved.
i know you never stopped being pleasant.
i know you have a huge heart.
i know you always listened.
i know you have a great sense of humor.
i know you love writing in fancy fonts.

i know you never stopped saying "LOL".
i know you never judged others, including me.
i know you have been my friend for a long time now.
i know you keep writing me, even when i forget to write you.
i know you left a piece of yourself in belize.
i know i will always think of you as a friend that i love and respect.
tammy, you added something to my life too. godspeed, girlfriend.
j.