CHLOE,I have been away for a long time from the board and only today 'caught up', you don't know me but i want to say that i hope that your loss is eased by the memories of special times, and the love of time spent together in such a special place for you have been truely blessed, however that does not negate the pain in your heart or the space in your bed that is so empty... may God bless you and be with and ease your sorrows...john in denver